sad is happy for deep people. :)

I've been walking down the street

on my barefeet;

Feeling nature in the grass

time going by so fast,

I've been looking through a window

With my eyes

Right through deception and the lies

Time going by in the past,

Running around, running around

Spinning circles getting nowhere

something I managed to have found

I'm not lazy but i'm crazy

So many plans with no motivation

sounds like i'm just going with procrastination

I'm feeling dark and melancholy

A place I like to be where nobody sees

It's my own personall version of holy

deep inside to look with the soul's keys

You got nothing to worry

alone but feeling connected to the world ~

so sorry, I got nothing to show

world inside is bigger than the outside

Walking down the street on my barefeet

feeling nature in the grass

and the rain is falling and it feels like me

I keep falling down but i'm loving every second

Judging

I think it's important we recognize how one should judge others. How one should accurately and righteously judge a person: First, there are first impressions when you first encounter someone, and you have thoughts going through your mind instantly that you can't stop thinking about because you don't know them. That's a normal human reaction. First we see their appearance, their face, clothes, expression, the way they walk or stand. We judge them by thinking from past experiences, and what we know, so if we see someone wearing tattoos, and piercings, and they walk funny, we immediately assume they don't have very high standards in life for going far, or other things such as, not caring about themselves so much. The truth is, this could just be them expressing them-self in a different way, because they didn't know any other way to show it, but they could be a great person without us even knowing it. 

When you want to judge someone perfectly, you have to really get to know them first, and understand them. Talk to them as an equal, and learn what they've been through, and the way they think, and why they choose to do certain things. Like in my anthropology class, I learned about how so many cultures, we all have our differences, but we are all still human, and share the same emotions. What guides us is our conscious, and we all have different thoughts and everything. We get to know someone and become their friend, and know them, then you can truly understand what it is to judge.

 I think it's best not to judge anyone, in my opinion, we don't have a right to do that, when we don't fully understand someone, maybe we never can, because we're all different, it would be impossible to really know what it is, going through the mind of someone else. The best thing to do, is be kind, and always understand everyone is equal, and to never judge anyone on their mistakes, because we learn from our mistakes, and we all make them. People can change too, so judging someone at one time, can be completely different from what they are like in the future, so you can never accurately judge someone if they might not be who they are at another time.

 Overall, we should believe that people each have their own opinions, we all have our own judgement, but we should respect each-other no matter what, besides, why would we want to be judged ourselves? It doesn't matter what race, religion, or heritage you derive from, if you think people are different that's just a reflection more so on yourself. Of course, everyone is unique still, we all have differences, but as far as those characteristics go, no, we don't have that right to judge another human being for the way they are born. Humans are humans, and if we really want peace we have to treat everyone the same.

How It Is

Words a whisper

that could easily disperse

around the bend

to the very end

and dissapear

upsides to the downsides

are the positive outlook

that we need for no hope moments

and we realize then that we cope

if at all we never succeed

just remember all that there is

this is all we ever need

our strength to survive without bliss

we have our lives and over again

that's just the way it's always been

that's how it is

how it is

We watch trees grow

from a young age

when we were so low

now stuck above five feet

like our growth's in a cage

If at all, we try

its always until

the day we die

and for survival 

we'd do it all still

that's how it is

how it is

how it is...

Why You're Important

Well, first reason you're important is because you have someone like me talking about you, because I care. You have someone miles away that came from an average family talking to make sure you just..feel good. I want you to feel good. I want you to know people care about you, it wouldn't be just me even if everyone got a chance to talk to you. Think about how much of a miracle you are, it took two people to be born, your parents, and before them, their parents, and years before that all those ancestors, and for each person to meet, they had to live their full lives. They grew up, and lived, found eachother, fell in love, had children. All those lives, all those people, through thousands of years all led to you, now. The chances are so slim too, to have what we have on Earth, to have people meet and have family. But it happens all around us and people do find that, we're blessed everyday just to be here.

You have to realize you're special because you have as much right as anyone else to be here. Nobody can take that from you, nobody can give that to you, you yourself have to know that it is truth. To be walking, and breathing in this air, this air that everybody shares. The air we breathe has passed through the lungs of others, because we share this planet. Nobody is not special, we are here for a reason. We each have our own individuality, and our uniqueness, and our own strengths and weaknesses, and nobody is perfect. We don't need to stand out to be special, we just need to be ourselves, and as long as you act yourself, you're the most unique person alive. This is a world where people are fake, where people look to celebrities, where people are too afraid to be themselves, just be yourself and you're set.

You're special because no matter what you do, you will find your own path in life. We each take our first steps when we are tiny little beings, and just learning to walk that's when we learn freedom. So, a short story, one time my mom let the door stay open and I walked out when I was 2 years old to explore the world. Fascinated just by the grass in front of the home, I didn't get far. We're all special because we have this world for ourselves, to admire it, to appreciate it, we have beauty all around our eyes if we watch it. A simple tree can be planted, and grown and we can grow up while watching the tree we grow and see how our acts can create something in nature that will last longer than our own lifetime. This mark will be left for others, the future generations of Earth depend on us, without us, there won't be a future, we are the future.

You're special, specifically you, because you're still growing, and learning, and understanding more. We go through life with all these problems, and ups and downs and ups and downs, but we don't stop to appreciate what we do have. We don't stop to look at the upside, of every downside, and we don't look at the big picture. We are so fortunate to even be here, yes, we get hurt. We all get hurt, but we have people there for us. Always, we can talk through prayer to have our messages recieved and answered. No matter what in life, things can get better, no matter what in life, we have a future and if we stop now to look at all the bad things going on, we won't move past them to see that when we lose something, it's okay to realize we will gain something too. You're special because you're you, there will never be another YOU in the world, and you have a chance to leave something on this world that's different from what everyone else has left behind.

Bedtime Story. ;D

  One night my best friend Elise couldn't sleep, so I was on my phone and I was texting her. I told her I would text her a story. I didn't know it'd turn out to be this long.. but, I texted each paragraph one after another, she kept asking for more to be added, so it turned into this. I wrote and thought of it on the spot. :) haha

Once upon a time... There was a man who lived alone in a house deep in a forest up on a hill. On the hill there were trees scattered around and the man would use the trees for his house. He wanted to make his house become a mansion someday, so every day he went out and cut logs, brought them back and added onto his house, taller and taller, and taller. Then one day, he built windows and he could see out from the top of his mansion from the hill all across the forest, where he spotted a clearing upon which he saw a river that ran through, and by the river was a bunch of animals and a child calling out for help. The man took off downstairs and ran to the clearing, but when he got there, there was no child, only an owl that told him ''if you're looking for help, it’s not because you're a child, you're an adult.'' The man thought about it and knew what it meant. The next day he heard the child asking for help but he didn't go this time. The owl flew to him, and said, ‘‘Just because I said something, doesn't mean you shouldn't help others'' so the man thought, "oh...ok." The next day, nobody cried for help and the owl told him, '' you're the one that needs help, stuck alone in a forest, in a house by yourself and surrounded by silence, waiting for human life''. The man knew he was right, so he started walking down the river.

              As the man walked down the side of the river, he reached a spot where there was three stepping stones across the width of the river, so he decided to jump them. He hopped from one to the next, thinking he's finally doing something with his life, no matter how small an action, it's more than he had hoped for. He gets to the middle of the river and a gust of wind rushes at him that knocks him off balance and he wobbles and tumbles into the river. The man starts panting and clawing at the water and realizing that he can't swim, quickly tries to grab a hold of something. He grabs a branch hanging from the side and makes his way to the other side of the river. On this side are three frogs that say he needs to answer a riddle to pass. The first frog says, "Here's my riddle, what’s something you lay your head on at night, that sinks down to your level, that will hide you from your fears and hold your tears?" The man thinks about it and knows too well, he answers, "A pillow, I've cried many tears feeling all alone these years.'' The frog jumps into the water and the man gets to the next frog which asks  "What's come so far this way that hasn't moved, it has its bends and keeps you under forever and ever, if it can.'' The man knows this only too well too, saying ''The river, I was almost under it...forever." The frog jumps into the water, and the last frog asks  "What's in the sky that reflects ourselves, what's on the earth, that graces us, and in the water that lures us?'' And the man answers "Being alone, I've only had these things, peace, and quiet. Only peace can be found in heaven, on the ground, and death leads us there."

                The man continues on. The man makes it to the next clearing and finds a soft patch of earth, and decides that he wants to camp there for the night. Tired from his travels he lays down and falls asleep, dreaming a better dream. He wakes up and starts heading out of the forest when he meets up with a family of deer. They don't run away but stay with him. Over the next days travel the deer open up and say they want to help as much as possible. As he sleeps the next night, the baby deer comes over and whispers in the man's ear "You're almost there.'' and goes away. He wakes up to find the family of deer all gone.. He sees the dear's trail leading back from where he came and decides to go on his own, weary from his travels he wonders how much further he can go on. He makes it to a part of the forest that has large cliffs rise up that would make his mansion look like the size of an ant hill.. an ant hill that got squished. He gets to the cliffs and sees jagged sharp edges sticking out, knowing he can use those to plant his feet, he sticks his hands out and starts climbing.  He gets halfway to the top when an eagle soars by him several times then calls at him, and keeps yelling at the man '' you won't make it, you won't get there, you're going to fall, its too far, you'll get too tired!'' the man carries on. Reinforcing his thoughts to strengthen himself, saying "I can make it! I can do this!" he gets to the top, panting and out of breathe with beads of sweat going down his forehead.

            He lays down and rolls over and the eagle joins him, and says, "‘never have I seen anyone persevere so far... good luck." The man drinks what's left of what he brought and carries on. He reaches a natural waterslide shaped out of the cliff on the other side, and decides to take it, fastest way, and most fun way. He splashes water all over his cuts from climbing, and splashes his face with water to clean the dirt off and clean his hair out all the way until he gets to the bottom. Now on the other side of the cliff, away from the forest he reaches a dirt stone path, with a sign pointing east reading, ''every step in life takes you closer to every goal you ever wanted''. He takes a step and feels confident enough he can keep going and never stop. He goes on the path walking for 3 kilometers until he sees a lit house at the edge with a sign that reads  "mansion being built''.

            He goes to the house and knocks on the door, the door opens to him and the owl climbs out quickly and closes the door shut. The owl then starts by saying "in all your life, you've done nothing but build a house, which has let you survive, but have you really lived your life? The last couple days, you figured out you were intelligent in riddles, the will to survive a thrashing current, you held kindness with animals, you persevered through by climbing the cliff with so much hate, and you enjoyed yourself at the end having fun, and you ended up still looking clean by the end of it. In all your life, you know yourself, you have not truly lived until now, and the reason is not to be alone. For all this you won't be.''

            The owl opens the door to a beautiful house inside where the man walks in, as the owl flies away. A woman comes downstairs and asks ''do you by any chance know how to build a mansion? I need someone's help'' the man is thinking, ''this is the first time, in so long I've been needed, and not alone..'' he decides to help her. Each day he cuts logs, brings them and builds upon the house while the woman cooks him cookies and brings him  milk. They get to know each other as the days go by, and the man asks '' have you ever felt lonely?'' The woman turns and says, ''I have, but not since you've come to visit me.'' In the end, the man finishes the mansion, and with it built they get married and live happily ever after. 

Miracles

I woke to the midnight drone

to the noise that makes no sound

the thoughts that swirl around

still won't pick up the phone

trying to swing from one end to the other

Where am I on the pendulum

From happy to sad, to happy,now why bother?

Then it's all gone, gone's the fulcrum

The worlds just not in the mood

like an old man, he says he's rude

fifty years later that's normal

but when he was young, he was just so formal

So much change, with nothing in my pockets

with the years gone by, we still smile at rockets

And the whole truth, the truth is we won't need to fight

with the men who fight while we sleep at night

This is for you, who cries, while others risk for you

and the past generations that led to you

a miracle, you're still alive

a miracle, a baby in this world you've arrived

Emotion -Advice

 I won’t be your psychologist, and I won’t be your therapist, or even a psychiatrist. I am simply a person who can say I've seen enough to understand life at a different perspective than most, and I offer my opinions to everyone to guide them. To guide you through everything you have gone through so far, we need to go back and really question everything, figure out why everything happened. To help you understand, here is my opinion on life, “what you give to the world, it will take with a smile.” This means that, no matter what you do in life, no matter what you believe, no matter what you create, it may be for the good of the world, or for yourself, but created on this planet, it will last on the world for its own purposes. The strings are not tied to fate, but to nature, it will receive well whatever you wish to give, but it will not always be what you expect. The smile can be because it is thankful or because the world is sly and simply doesn't desire to give you what you want this time. Now, don’t take this as a depressing thought. The world gave us everything, it doesn't have to give everything back to us. Forget the whole prospect of, “life is what you make it”. It must seem very obvious by now that it is not, considering what has happened recently with the industrial age and every human being born into a society we can't escape. You did not choose to lose yourself to emotion that has gathered you up and thrown you into a hurricane. Although that all may be true, we do control how we feel about each event and we have to take each thing that hits us in life, and deal with it separately, one at a time. This is because we feel about each different thing that has affected us in our lives differently, no bad thing can make us feel the same, we relate it to the same words though; “fear, anger, sadness, pity, helplessness, confusion”. Think of emotions like colours, you take confusion, and make it green. You are confused about the meaning of life, and this shade of green is dark, now, you take this thought, “Why would the government be in debt?” When you first asked yourself this, you must have been confused at the thought; you know now, why it is that this happened. At the time, this confusion would have been a shade of light green. It is a different shade of green to define a different emotion, but still confusion. When we think about this, we have to realize there is a colour wheel, in the center; we have a light that represents peace. We need to use the opposite colour of our emotions to not cover up, but to fix the colour that is bringing us down. Pretend that white, for instance is the emotion colour that would fix this green confusion, and you find that light again. When you think about this light, you feel at peace, everything is okay, you understand everything, the meaning of life is clear, you understand from not only your own perspective.  When people want more, and when they live for power, and they live for money, they will work themselves up to the very top to find themselves dissatisfied at the thought that they cannot have more than that, there is nowhere else in life to take them further. We have to live for happiness; the only goal should always be happiness. With this goal in mind you can live your life not worrying about power, and greed for more, and a hunger that will go after your little negative desires in life. When living for happiness you will try to experience new things to take you to new places, and risks to take you past your comfort zone to live through the best of times. When we are in a low state, we have to focus on what creates that emotion colour I was talking about before, to fix the problem. It may seem silly, but this is all metaphors, I know there are no actual colours for emotions, but to represent them like this clarifies the whole idea behind it. On the grand scheme of things, we know that everyone dies. 

Say for instance someone you knew died early, but it could easily have been earlier. We have to be thankful for the time we have with the ones we love, and to cherish each moment. You loved that person, and they were good. Looking up, where you ponder thoughts about the afterlife, think about what that person would want now. They would want you to be happy, not to be at a loss, and in a state of sorrow. They would want you to take responsibility for your emotions, for you alone control who you are. You are destined from the beginning when you are born, to live. We breathe our first breathes on this beautiful planet, and our hearts beat for the first time to give us warmth. Warmth is given to us instantly, a comfort. We will always have comfort at the thought of this, “that heartbeat, is purpose”. We all have a purpose, but when we drift off the path of our destined plan to live the way we want, we lose sight and get lost in that darkness that separates us from that peace. We always have a purpose though, all it takes is to realize when things change, we have to change ourselves to adapt to this change and to feel that purpose again. Your purpose, is to find your way out of this sadness. If you feel you cannot do this, then you are lost. You can do this though, we all know somebody who has lost someone close to us, and you may be different from everyone else, taking emotions strongly, and every thought to heart, but that is because you have a big heart.

You need to take action and responsibility for your actions, if you are lost, and going off of impulses, you need to slow down and take a real look at who you are. Being introspective involves the thoughts constantly running through the back of your mind, the ones you want to ignore. Look there and find the answers that are at the front of your mind. It’s a mess, but we learn from a very young age. The front of your mind holds the knowledge of right from wrong. We know the difference, and you have to do right, and choose the right. Choosing the right means not going through with negative things that will take you adrift to places you would hate to go to, or take measures that are crazy. You cannot keep yourself in the past where things are bad, you have to keep moving along past these obstacles in life and use them to keep the bad back, this can be bad if you don’t face these things first though. Think each action through carefully, feel everything you did, and express it as you do through words. Words will change the world, actions will throw it into chaos. Everybody interprets words differently, what we say can mean something completely different to somebody else and its meaning has changed and thus, this written now will have a complete opposite meaning in a thousand years’ time. Right now, you can read this, and I’ve been telling you that you can accomplish a lot, you can move on, you will feel at peace, you should realize all this is possible by now, that you can get through it. That light is always there in the center to keep you at peace, and through each thought you accomplish all the new wonders possible. Interpret all this as you may, for I don’t want to force upon you every thought of mine.

The actions I would recommend you take is : do what feels right, and be confident.  We hold constants in our life that hold us in place that will never change our values, our morals, and our own thoughts. You exist, when you think. Thinking is all there is to it; nobody has to know what each person thinks, but we can know we ourselves exist and that we are unique, nobody else has to intrude on our conscious, or make us feel down. You held love for your family, continue to love your family. Next action I would recommend is to take leadership,you are a responsible person with a mind of ideas. You can change so much, and it all matters, if you think so much about your own life, you will forget that other’s lives are just as important, as we are all equal.

not all is lost, you will continue to grow, you will continue to learn, and to understand. I wish you the best of luck.