sad is happy for deep people. :)

I've been walking down the street

on my barefeet;

Feeling nature in the grass

time going by so fast,

I've been looking through a window

With my eyes

Right through deception and the lies

Time going by in the past,

Running around, running around

Spinning circles getting nowhere

something I managed to have found

I'm not lazy but i'm crazy

So many plans with no motivation

sounds like i'm just going with procrastination

I'm feeling dark and melancholy

A place I like to be where nobody sees

It's my own personall version of holy

deep inside to look with the soul's keys

You got nothing to worry

alone but feeling connected to the world ~

so sorry, I got nothing to show

world inside is bigger than the outside

Walking down the street on my barefeet

feeling nature in the grass

and the rain is falling and it feels like me

I keep falling down but i'm loving every second

Judging

I think it's important we recognize how one should judge others. How one should accurately and righteously judge a person: First, there are first impressions when you first encounter someone, and you have thoughts going through your mind instantly that you can't stop thinking about because you don't know them. That's a normal human reaction. First we see their appearance, their face, clothes, expression, the way they walk or stand. We judge them by thinking from past experiences, and what we know, so if we see someone wearing tattoos, and piercings, and they walk funny, we immediately assume they don't have very high standards in life for going far, or other things such as, not caring about themselves so much. The truth is, this could just be them expressing them-self in a different way, because they didn't know any other way to show it, but they could be a great person without us even knowing it. 

When you want to judge someone perfectly, you have to really get to know them first, and understand them. Talk to them as an equal, and learn what they've been through, and the way they think, and why they choose to do certain things. Like in my anthropology class, I learned about how so many cultures, we all have our differences, but we are all still human, and share the same emotions. What guides us is our conscious, and we all have different thoughts and everything. We get to know someone and become their friend, and know them, then you can truly understand what it is to judge.

 I think it's best not to judge anyone, in my opinion, we don't have a right to do that, when we don't fully understand someone, maybe we never can, because we're all different, it would be impossible to really know what it is, going through the mind of someone else. The best thing to do, is be kind, and always understand everyone is equal, and to never judge anyone on their mistakes, because we learn from our mistakes, and we all make them. People can change too, so judging someone at one time, can be completely different from what they are like in the future, so you can never accurately judge someone if they might not be who they are at another time.

 Overall, we should believe that people each have their own opinions, we all have our own judgement, but we should respect each-other no matter what, besides, why would we want to be judged ourselves? It doesn't matter what race, religion, or heritage you derive from, if you think people are different that's just a reflection more so on yourself. Of course, everyone is unique still, we all have differences, but as far as those characteristics go, no, we don't have that right to judge another human being for the way they are born. Humans are humans, and if we really want peace we have to treat everyone the same.

How It Is

Words a whisper

that could easily disperse

around the bend

to the very end

and dissapear

upsides to the downsides

are the positive outlook

that we need for no hope moments

and we realize then that we cope

if at all we never succeed

just remember all that there is

this is all we ever need

our strength to survive without bliss

we have our lives and over again

that's just the way it's always been

that's how it is

how it is

We watch trees grow

from a young age

when we were so low

now stuck above five feet

like our growth's in a cage

If at all, we try

its always until

the day we die

and for survival 

we'd do it all still

that's how it is

how it is

how it is...

Why You're Important

Well, first reason you're important is because you have someone like me talking about you, because I care. You have someone miles away that came from an average family talking to make sure you just..feel good. I want you to feel good. I want you to know people care about you, it wouldn't be just me even if everyone got a chance to talk to you. Think about how much of a miracle you are, it took two people to be born, your parents, and before them, their parents, and years before that all those ancestors, and for each person to meet, they had to live their full lives. They grew up, and lived, found eachother, fell in love, had children. All those lives, all those people, through thousands of years all led to you, now. The chances are so slim too, to have what we have on Earth, to have people meet and have family. But it happens all around us and people do find that, we're blessed everyday just to be here.

You have to realize you're special because you have as much right as anyone else to be here. Nobody can take that from you, nobody can give that to you, you yourself have to know that it is truth. To be walking, and breathing in this air, this air that everybody shares. The air we breathe has passed through the lungs of others, because we share this planet. Nobody is not special, we are here for a reason. We each have our own individuality, and our uniqueness, and our own strengths and weaknesses, and nobody is perfect. We don't need to stand out to be special, we just need to be ourselves, and as long as you act yourself, you're the most unique person alive. This is a world where people are fake, where people look to celebrities, where people are too afraid to be themselves, just be yourself and you're set.

You're special because no matter what you do, you will find your own path in life. We each take our first steps when we are tiny little beings, and just learning to walk that's when we learn freedom. So, a short story, one time my mom let the door stay open and I walked out when I was 2 years old to explore the world. Fascinated just by the grass in front of the home, I didn't get far. We're all special because we have this world for ourselves, to admire it, to appreciate it, we have beauty all around our eyes if we watch it. A simple tree can be planted, and grown and we can grow up while watching the tree we grow and see how our acts can create something in nature that will last longer than our own lifetime. This mark will be left for others, the future generations of Earth depend on us, without us, there won't be a future, we are the future.

You're special, specifically you, because you're still growing, and learning, and understanding more. We go through life with all these problems, and ups and downs and ups and downs, but we don't stop to appreciate what we do have. We don't stop to look at the upside, of every downside, and we don't look at the big picture. We are so fortunate to even be here, yes, we get hurt. We all get hurt, but we have people there for us. Always, we can talk through prayer to have our messages recieved and answered. No matter what in life, things can get better, no matter what in life, we have a future and if we stop now to look at all the bad things going on, we won't move past them to see that when we lose something, it's okay to realize we will gain something too. You're special because you're you, there will never be another YOU in the world, and you have a chance to leave something on this world that's different from what everyone else has left behind.

Bedtime Story. ;D

  One night my best friend Elise couldn't sleep, so I was on my phone and I was texting her. I told her I would text her a story. I didn't know it'd turn out to be this long.. but, I texted each paragraph one after another, she kept asking for more to be added, so it turned into this. I wrote and thought of it on the spot. :) haha

Once upon a time... There was a man who lived alone in a house deep in a forest up on a hill. On the hill there were trees scattered around and the man would use the trees for his house. He wanted to make his house become a mansion someday, so every day he went out and cut logs, brought them back and added onto his house, taller and taller, and taller. Then one day, he built windows and he could see out from the top of his mansion from the hill all across the forest, where he spotted a clearing upon which he saw a river that ran through, and by the river was a bunch of animals and a child calling out for help. The man took off downstairs and ran to the clearing, but when he got there, there was no child, only an owl that told him ''if you're looking for help, it’s not because you're a child, you're an adult.'' The man thought about it and knew what it meant. The next day he heard the child asking for help but he didn't go this time. The owl flew to him, and said, ‘‘Just because I said something, doesn't mean you shouldn't help others'' so the man thought, "oh...ok." The next day, nobody cried for help and the owl told him, '' you're the one that needs help, stuck alone in a forest, in a house by yourself and surrounded by silence, waiting for human life''. The man knew he was right, so he started walking down the river.

              As the man walked down the side of the river, he reached a spot where there was three stepping stones across the width of the river, so he decided to jump them. He hopped from one to the next, thinking he's finally doing something with his life, no matter how small an action, it's more than he had hoped for. He gets to the middle of the river and a gust of wind rushes at him that knocks him off balance and he wobbles and tumbles into the river. The man starts panting and clawing at the water and realizing that he can't swim, quickly tries to grab a hold of something. He grabs a branch hanging from the side and makes his way to the other side of the river. On this side are three frogs that say he needs to answer a riddle to pass. The first frog says, "Here's my riddle, what’s something you lay your head on at night, that sinks down to your level, that will hide you from your fears and hold your tears?" The man thinks about it and knows too well, he answers, "A pillow, I've cried many tears feeling all alone these years.'' The frog jumps into the water and the man gets to the next frog which asks  "What's come so far this way that hasn't moved, it has its bends and keeps you under forever and ever, if it can.'' The man knows this only too well too, saying ''The river, I was almost under it...forever." The frog jumps into the water, and the last frog asks  "What's in the sky that reflects ourselves, what's on the earth, that graces us, and in the water that lures us?'' And the man answers "Being alone, I've only had these things, peace, and quiet. Only peace can be found in heaven, on the ground, and death leads us there."

                The man continues on. The man makes it to the next clearing and finds a soft patch of earth, and decides that he wants to camp there for the night. Tired from his travels he lays down and falls asleep, dreaming a better dream. He wakes up and starts heading out of the forest when he meets up with a family of deer. They don't run away but stay with him. Over the next days travel the deer open up and say they want to help as much as possible. As he sleeps the next night, the baby deer comes over and whispers in the man's ear "You're almost there.'' and goes away. He wakes up to find the family of deer all gone.. He sees the dear's trail leading back from where he came and decides to go on his own, weary from his travels he wonders how much further he can go on. He makes it to a part of the forest that has large cliffs rise up that would make his mansion look like the size of an ant hill.. an ant hill that got squished. He gets to the cliffs and sees jagged sharp edges sticking out, knowing he can use those to plant his feet, he sticks his hands out and starts climbing.  He gets halfway to the top when an eagle soars by him several times then calls at him, and keeps yelling at the man '' you won't make it, you won't get there, you're going to fall, its too far, you'll get too tired!'' the man carries on. Reinforcing his thoughts to strengthen himself, saying "I can make it! I can do this!" he gets to the top, panting and out of breathe with beads of sweat going down his forehead.

            He lays down and rolls over and the eagle joins him, and says, "‘never have I seen anyone persevere so far... good luck." The man drinks what's left of what he brought and carries on. He reaches a natural waterslide shaped out of the cliff on the other side, and decides to take it, fastest way, and most fun way. He splashes water all over his cuts from climbing, and splashes his face with water to clean the dirt off and clean his hair out all the way until he gets to the bottom. Now on the other side of the cliff, away from the forest he reaches a dirt stone path, with a sign pointing east reading, ''every step in life takes you closer to every goal you ever wanted''. He takes a step and feels confident enough he can keep going and never stop. He goes on the path walking for 3 kilometers until he sees a lit house at the edge with a sign that reads  "mansion being built''.

            He goes to the house and knocks on the door, the door opens to him and the owl climbs out quickly and closes the door shut. The owl then starts by saying "in all your life, you've done nothing but build a house, which has let you survive, but have you really lived your life? The last couple days, you figured out you were intelligent in riddles, the will to survive a thrashing current, you held kindness with animals, you persevered through by climbing the cliff with so much hate, and you enjoyed yourself at the end having fun, and you ended up still looking clean by the end of it. In all your life, you know yourself, you have not truly lived until now, and the reason is not to be alone. For all this you won't be.''

            The owl opens the door to a beautiful house inside where the man walks in, as the owl flies away. A woman comes downstairs and asks ''do you by any chance know how to build a mansion? I need someone's help'' the man is thinking, ''this is the first time, in so long I've been needed, and not alone..'' he decides to help her. Each day he cuts logs, brings them and builds upon the house while the woman cooks him cookies and brings him  milk. They get to know each other as the days go by, and the man asks '' have you ever felt lonely?'' The woman turns and says, ''I have, but not since you've come to visit me.'' In the end, the man finishes the mansion, and with it built they get married and live happily ever after. 

Miracles

I woke to the midnight drone

to the noise that makes no sound

the thoughts that swirl around

still won't pick up the phone

trying to swing from one end to the other

Where am I on the pendulum

From happy to sad, to happy,now why bother?

Then it's all gone, gone's the fulcrum

The worlds just not in the mood

like an old man, he says he's rude

fifty years later that's normal

but when he was young, he was just so formal

So much change, with nothing in my pockets

with the years gone by, we still smile at rockets

And the whole truth, the truth is we won't need to fight

with the men who fight while we sleep at night

This is for you, who cries, while others risk for you

and the past generations that led to you

a miracle, you're still alive

a miracle, a baby in this world you've arrived

Emotion -Advice

 I won’t be your psychologist, and I won’t be your therapist, or even a psychiatrist. I am simply a person who can say I've seen enough to understand life at a different perspective than most, and I offer my opinions to everyone to guide them. To guide you through everything you have gone through so far, we need to go back and really question everything, figure out why everything happened. To help you understand, here is my opinion on life, “what you give to the world, it will take with a smile.” This means that, no matter what you do in life, no matter what you believe, no matter what you create, it may be for the good of the world, or for yourself, but created on this planet, it will last on the world for its own purposes. The strings are not tied to fate, but to nature, it will receive well whatever you wish to give, but it will not always be what you expect. The smile can be because it is thankful or because the world is sly and simply doesn't desire to give you what you want this time. Now, don’t take this as a depressing thought. The world gave us everything, it doesn't have to give everything back to us. Forget the whole prospect of, “life is what you make it”. It must seem very obvious by now that it is not, considering what has happened recently with the industrial age and every human being born into a society we can't escape. You did not choose to lose yourself to emotion that has gathered you up and thrown you into a hurricane. Although that all may be true, we do control how we feel about each event and we have to take each thing that hits us in life, and deal with it separately, one at a time. This is because we feel about each different thing that has affected us in our lives differently, no bad thing can make us feel the same, we relate it to the same words though; “fear, anger, sadness, pity, helplessness, confusion”. Think of emotions like colours, you take confusion, and make it green. You are confused about the meaning of life, and this shade of green is dark, now, you take this thought, “Why would the government be in debt?” When you first asked yourself this, you must have been confused at the thought; you know now, why it is that this happened. At the time, this confusion would have been a shade of light green. It is a different shade of green to define a different emotion, but still confusion. When we think about this, we have to realize there is a colour wheel, in the center; we have a light that represents peace. We need to use the opposite colour of our emotions to not cover up, but to fix the colour that is bringing us down. Pretend that white, for instance is the emotion colour that would fix this green confusion, and you find that light again. When you think about this light, you feel at peace, everything is okay, you understand everything, the meaning of life is clear, you understand from not only your own perspective.  When people want more, and when they live for power, and they live for money, they will work themselves up to the very top to find themselves dissatisfied at the thought that they cannot have more than that, there is nowhere else in life to take them further. We have to live for happiness; the only goal should always be happiness. With this goal in mind you can live your life not worrying about power, and greed for more, and a hunger that will go after your little negative desires in life. When living for happiness you will try to experience new things to take you to new places, and risks to take you past your comfort zone to live through the best of times. When we are in a low state, we have to focus on what creates that emotion colour I was talking about before, to fix the problem. It may seem silly, but this is all metaphors, I know there are no actual colours for emotions, but to represent them like this clarifies the whole idea behind it. On the grand scheme of things, we know that everyone dies. 

Say for instance someone you knew died early, but it could easily have been earlier. We have to be thankful for the time we have with the ones we love, and to cherish each moment. You loved that person, and they were good. Looking up, where you ponder thoughts about the afterlife, think about what that person would want now. They would want you to be happy, not to be at a loss, and in a state of sorrow. They would want you to take responsibility for your emotions, for you alone control who you are. You are destined from the beginning when you are born, to live. We breathe our first breathes on this beautiful planet, and our hearts beat for the first time to give us warmth. Warmth is given to us instantly, a comfort. We will always have comfort at the thought of this, “that heartbeat, is purpose”. We all have a purpose, but when we drift off the path of our destined plan to live the way we want, we lose sight and get lost in that darkness that separates us from that peace. We always have a purpose though, all it takes is to realize when things change, we have to change ourselves to adapt to this change and to feel that purpose again. Your purpose, is to find your way out of this sadness. If you feel you cannot do this, then you are lost. You can do this though, we all know somebody who has lost someone close to us, and you may be different from everyone else, taking emotions strongly, and every thought to heart, but that is because you have a big heart.

You need to take action and responsibility for your actions, if you are lost, and going off of impulses, you need to slow down and take a real look at who you are. Being introspective involves the thoughts constantly running through the back of your mind, the ones you want to ignore. Look there and find the answers that are at the front of your mind. It’s a mess, but we learn from a very young age. The front of your mind holds the knowledge of right from wrong. We know the difference, and you have to do right, and choose the right. Choosing the right means not going through with negative things that will take you adrift to places you would hate to go to, or take measures that are crazy. You cannot keep yourself in the past where things are bad, you have to keep moving along past these obstacles in life and use them to keep the bad back, this can be bad if you don’t face these things first though. Think each action through carefully, feel everything you did, and express it as you do through words. Words will change the world, actions will throw it into chaos. Everybody interprets words differently, what we say can mean something completely different to somebody else and its meaning has changed and thus, this written now will have a complete opposite meaning in a thousand years’ time. Right now, you can read this, and I’ve been telling you that you can accomplish a lot, you can move on, you will feel at peace, you should realize all this is possible by now, that you can get through it. That light is always there in the center to keep you at peace, and through each thought you accomplish all the new wonders possible. Interpret all this as you may, for I don’t want to force upon you every thought of mine.

The actions I would recommend you take is : do what feels right, and be confident.  We hold constants in our life that hold us in place that will never change our values, our morals, and our own thoughts. You exist, when you think. Thinking is all there is to it; nobody has to know what each person thinks, but we can know we ourselves exist and that we are unique, nobody else has to intrude on our conscious, or make us feel down. You held love for your family, continue to love your family. Next action I would recommend is to take leadership,you are a responsible person with a mind of ideas. You can change so much, and it all matters, if you think so much about your own life, you will forget that other’s lives are just as important, as we are all equal.

not all is lost, you will continue to grow, you will continue to learn, and to understand. I wish you the best of luck.

My version of Once

One of my favourite artists, Glen Hansard creates music so well! I recommend if you haven't yet, to look him up and listen to some of his songs. He stars in a movie called, "Once" and it is brilliant really, elegantly made. The whole movie is really a musical, and I don't normally like musicals but this one was obviously so well thought out, it couldn't go wrong. The one song that caught everyone's attention in the movie is "Falling Slowly" A song that really caught my ear. The lyrics to the song are as follows:

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You'll make it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice


You've made it now 
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing it loud

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great lyrics, right? I recommend listening to them as well. :)

Now, after hearing the song and listening to the lyrics I thought i'd make my own version of the song! :)
They go like this.
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Rise Above

Right behind me

still just you and me

driving a point home

these words so bare

like feelings so bare

got the whole world to roam

And tricks up your sleeve

that hide what's left of relief

it's hard to believe everytime you leave

climb from that hole we've dug

Life passes us by

let yourself go, you can grow

so close to light

Rise Above, caught right in the glove

all of it in the past

emotions easy to shove that you shove

all of it will last

conflict in you unseen

your fight going on

you can stop being so mean

Rise Above, caught right in the glove

all of it in the past

emotions easy to shove that you shove

Out in the light

Rise above, you've caught this love

I'll give you mine

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They capture the same idea, but the beginning is figuring it all out, that they already know it's all about them, they know eachother but they don't say anything. They both have a past, and it hurts but the guy in this song is supportive. :)

even more, Advice!

Everybody has regrets, you’re not alone in that and that’s why we say, “move on”. We carry our burdens, but we can let them go as we grow and learn to deal with them and face those past problems in our lives that we have had. You give your life purpose by finding interests and doing the things you love doing. everybody lives and we don't know our purpose, we just know we want to live (at first). God wouldn't provide this beautiful earth if we couldn't fully enjoy it. We have so many things offered to us. In other third world countries and even in Europe kids are abandoned on streets asking tourists for money, finding food where they can. We have enough money to find purpose just by giving those poor people we see on the streets what we have. I find purpose in life by doing what I'm doing now and helping you.
Don't give up on what you've been working on forever just because something brings you down. When life throws its worst at you that's the perfect time to get up and show life that you're the owner of your own life and you can keep going. you gotta be believe in yourself because you're awesome, stay awesome, just stay like that and be happy, smile when you're down, laugh when you're embarrassed, wipe your knees when you fall, and move on, we all make mistakes and I can definitely see everyone getting even farther. Remember the words "believe in yourself" and never forget them, let them motivate you, you will succeed.

What I don't need to say

always starts with a simple gesture

nothing like a smile from you

always making me feel better

with a laugh that'll say, I do

And I won't ever tell you I love you

but I'll tell you exactly how I feel

everyone else can say love

but you'll always feel forever

we'll be our own symbol

a picture perfect Heaven

we could make things so simple

with a laugh that'll say, I do

hand in hand we'll travel

for years and years like that

letting all the time unravel

and walk right to our welcome mat

And I won't ever tell you I love you

but I'll tell you exactly how I feel

everyone else can say love

but you'll always feel forever

No one can show you better

These are words I don't need to tell ya

one random day we'll fall

to live a complete adventure

to stop and find it all

on one knee I'll ask for our future

with a laugh that'll say, I do

And I won't ever tell you I love you

but I'll tell you exactly how I feel

everyone else can say love

but you'll always feel forever

More advice. :)

 my list of things, that will help in these different scenarios of life.

In regards to: guys are jerks~~ (Hearing a lot about that one for the past couple years) :

Lots of guys do care, I know I care about everyone's feelings, and I know lots of guys say the same thing and make it a lie. I personally don't care if I look like a good person to other people, because I know I can't please everyone, but I care if I look like a good person to myself, and I know i try my best to be the best I can be. Guys aren't perfect, many guys don't care, and in life everyone is going to get hurt, but the truth is, what should influence you, is all the good in life. Take what's bad and learn from it and move on, take what's good and keep that, every girl in the world needs comfort at some time in their life, same with every guy, nobody is unbreakable and we all have emotion.  People do hurt others, but we have to ignore those that hurt us, we have to get past those that damage us, and then repair over time. We have to look to a better future. Too many guys love playing games, as well as women, and it hurts people. If more people tried to stop it that would help; for instance  friends that know other guys that cheat, or friends that know someone is a danger. I wish more could be done, well it can..its just not. I know it feels like it's too much repetition sometimes with relationships going on, and then ending quickly because the person isn't who you expected them to be, but humans can take a lot emotionally and still recover, and make things better, always. It's only too much when you decide it is and give up. And yes, I realize girls aren't perfect either. Girls can be crazy, guys can be crazy, but eventually we all find the person that we know we will always be happy with.

If someone like an ex, or a friend, or a stranger insults you: I can tell you that you’re above that, and they’re wrong. Words can hurt but really it's not true, when someone is nasty or treats you poorly, don't take it personally. It says nothing about you but a lot about them. that’s beneath you and you don’t deserve it, and you're not any of those things people insult you with, smile because they’re wrong, smile because you know they’ll be gone eventually, and smile because your’re better than that. Be the better person and don’t let it get to you, anyone who does insult people will get karma while you’ll be left there remembering they had it coming. If you smile at your enemies, it's like this, "Killing them with kindness", because they're just looking for a reaction from you. Don't insult them back, just keep being happy, what others say about you is just their reflection, not yours.

If you recently broke up: You learned from it, and I suggest you just have to move on and find someone else, you’re a step closer to finding the right person. Remember there’s a reason you broke up, either way it wasn't meant to be. You’ll be happier knowing he wasn't the right person for you, or she wasn't the right person for you. If it wasn't going to work out anyway then there’s no reason to be sad, just take the happy memories with you and be happy you had a great time. Focus on distracting yourself and having a good time without that person, your life before them wasn't as bad as you remember it to be. Remember there isn't always just good stuff to any relationship, remember there was bad too and they weren't "perfect", because nobody is perfect. You will still find someone in the future though who you will see as perfect. Remember, you still have people who care about you, don't let one relationship bring you down. Everyone experiences heartbreak, some people worse than others, but it goes away. On average it can be about 8 months before you're really over someone.

If you know someone very ill: Be there for them, let them be proud of you, and you proud of them. Keep your head held high, and remember everything good that ever happened with the memories you had with that person, love them like they've loved you, pray to God (if you're religious of course), Hope for the best and expect the worst, that way you won't fall as hard. If they pass away, remember it's okay to be sad, it's okay to let all emotion out, everyone who knows and is close to that person will be sad just like you and you won't be judged.Take what you learned from this sick person and keep it close forever, maybe sometimes things don't seem perfect, but imperfection is perfection, that's why things are the way they are, nothing I can say will change what's happening or reverse it, except the fact I said this lets you know I care and i'm here. If you're an atheist, then hey, I understand you're sad, that's normal and if you feel like crying, that's okay, let it out. If you don't take comfort in knowing there is a God just remember, this is the cycle of life, remember everyone dies, it's part of our lives, it's huge, death happens everyday, but we lived our lives and sometimes our time comes quicker, same with people we know. It is sad, but when you can't do anything about it, don't blame yourself for anything, and don't regret anything you could've done, because what's happened, happened. Personally, I've been through this recently, my grandfather just passed away after being in the hospital for several weeks. My family visited him, and saw him, most of the time he was sleeping, other times he couldn't even talk. Just being there for them though is really all you can do, and try to make them comfortable as possible and making sure your family is there for each-other.

If you're having a fight with someone: Take a step back and take an objective view on things, do you really want to be sorry for anything you're going to say later on? NO. nobody wants to regret anything, be the bigger person and end the argument, doesn't matter what it is, remember, STOP IT. the point is fights are awful, we don't need them, life is short and we're not going to remember most fights in the future just like how you forgot lots of fights you had in elementary school.

If you need help finding friends: Hey, if you can't find friends already it's because they can't accept you for who you are.  You're you and you should never change, friends are people we hang out with and trust and use as a shoulder to lean on. Friends are people that also make us laugh, but the real friends aren't ones you make in high school  its the ones you keep even after you leave high school. Go out and meet new people, just jump into the world. Make plans and go see movies, or join a club, or team, or talk to people at work. The problem could even be that you're too hard on yourself and you think people won't accept you so you're too scared to even approach someone. If that's you, then stop, you have 7 billion people in the world, even if you're rejected by one person to be a friend there will be an enormous amount of other people who would be willing to be your friend, take chances.

First Advicey post.

Hey everyone, this message will most likely include you. So, personally, i'd suggest you keep reading. This is a shared message, a message that everyone should share and get across to everyone. This message is for those who are really struggling, or know somebody who is struggling. Personally, I'm kind of sad right now... I had all this typed up, and then the laptop stopped working and it got deleted. You can imagine my frustration, imagine thinking you just created the most epic masterpiece of writing, your favourite, and then it's just gone in seconds. Or, simply put, it's like Leonardo Da'Vinci finishing the Mona Lisa, and accidentally dropping it. ANYWAY! Here’s the message. :) I know there are so many people in this world who struggle, so, I want to let you know personally, I'm sad, for the sad people. 

This message is for the people who cry every night because they miss someone close to them, or several people close to them. This message is for the people who are bullied every day; and for the people who are judged because they are different. This message is for the people who wish they could go back in time just to change all the wrongs, this message is for all the people who live in an unhealthy atmosphere full of fighting. This message is for all the people with friends who backstab them, and this message is for all the people who are filled with a negative sense where they just simply feel like giving up.

Remember, this message really is for all of you, you can share it, you can live up to it, you can teach it. Did I say that I had started my message in the first paragraph? Oops...Well hey, now you know more about the message you're really about to read. Remember this.

For the people who have lost close friends or family, hey, I understand, i've lost plenty of family, and I know what it's like. If you're the type of person who feels like you're going alone through this, remember you are NOT alone. I repeat, not alone. Speak out to close members, or people that knew the people that passed away, they share your pain. We all go through this stage differently, and you might just feel like other people already moved on, but really they're also keeping it up bottled inside. If you're crying, and you reach out for help, remember other people won't always know how to react, but they do care. You can have a parent yelling at you, and it can be the meanest things! But they still love you, and they care about you, they're just frustrated at the situation, not you. If you feel nobody will be there for you, remember I will be there for you. I am here for you. :) And I know that there is DEFINITELY somebody else who will want to be there for you. If you lost someone, look up because they're smiling from above and they're in such a lovely place. Those who passed away would definitely want you to keep you living your life, not to stop and stay in the past, we have to move on, or we kill ourselves in the process of losing someone else. You have SO much to live for, you have everything, if you're not far now, remember every journey starts with a simple step in the right direction. There are people in this world with so much love, and understanding. They want you to feel good too! And it's understandable if you miss someone that has passed, sometimes we just have to realize they're in a better place. We will see them someday again, not until we have lived our lives though, and we can live our lives the way we want. I know every day can be a struggle when you're used to seeing them, and somethings just so easily remind you of that person, when we get reminded, don't cry because they're gone, smile because you got the chance to get to know them! There are billions of other people on the planet who didn't get that chance.

For the person who is bullied, where you are now in life may be so low you just want to give up, right? But don't. Think about all the bullies right now for a second, picture their faces and who they are. Now, are they perfect? no. Obviously they've made mistakes such as bullying, and true beauty is on the inside of someone's soul, and they're probably going through a lot themself. In a while from now, they will look back and really wish they hadn't of said those mean things, and they will say, "That's not who I am.." and they will feel bad. The key to getting past this is realizing that the bullies will always be around, people will always be mean, but it's up to us to stand up. We have to stand up in the right way, people have to be together and help eachother out. If you can't have that happen, that’s fine. We still have our own lives and the bullies are a small part of our lives that just want to make us feel bad. Anything they say at all, just know it isn’t true. You may not be perfect, just like how nobody else is perfect, we all have our flaws, but hey! You’re you, and nobody else in the world will ever be you again. You will be the only person ever to have your thoughts, and everything else about you, that you are. You choose your own destiny, and offense is taken, don't accept what they say about you. In your head, just go "that's not true i'm not what they're calling me". "Not true. They’re wrong." and so on. Continue to look in the mirror and be PROUD of who you are. You're special, and you got a whole entire future ahead of you filled with greatness to prove that. Besides, they don't have the right to tell you who you are! Nobody does, you are who you are, and you decide for yourself alone who you want to be.

Now, if your friends are backstabbing you, you need to get new friends! Real friends treat eachother with respect, and real friends help eachother out. Real friends are the ones who will be there for you to pick you up and make you feel good about yourself, not bad about yourself. If you feel like you can't leave those friends, it's because you're not ready to forgive them and move on. Remember, forgiveness sure won't change the past, but it will change the future. Friends can be found in the most random ways, and you might have trouble making friends, but try to join a club, or team, or start relating to people and going out to meet others. Make plans and go out to the movies, and just meet new people, trust me, there are a lot of friends people out there I bet you haven't met yet. Remember, not everyone obviously will want to be your friend, but it's kind of like asking someone on a date, some people will say yes, others will say no, appreciate the good friends you do have though if they say yes, don't get sad if not everyone wants to hangout. :) Now, if you're judged everyday, be it appearance, culture, or religion, just smile! When they judge you, ignore it, they probably don't even understand everything about you, or what you even believe in. Smiling annoys your enemies best, because they can't win. No matter what they say, it doesn't matter, you stand up for what you believe in, and you can keep believing what you believe in, if they judge you, you can stand up and tell them how you feel (in the positive, assertive way) not to create an argument, or you can ignore it and not let it get to you. It's your call, it depends on your personality. Remember, you are who you are, and if they can't accept you, find someone else who will. Speaking of judging, I wanted to get to the next point, family! Now, if you have a family that disagrees a lot, or fights a lot, I truly do feel sorry for you, I know that can be rough! Everyone in the family has a different role, and if there's disagreements, personalities can clash, people can yell, or throw tantrums, etc. If this happens, don't get yourself in the argument, be the mediator, be the peacekeeper. Try to calm everyone down, or if you're the one in the argument, you be the responsible person and calm down, and see what's best. If you're parents are constantly yelling at you everyday because they think you don't listen to them, start listening to them, it's not giving up, it's being mature. Time passes and it's better to have family peace than to do what you want. Not always, in different situations it can be complex, but if you sit down and talk about it all peacefully and try to come up with a solution, it's a whole lot better! Compromise and Collaboration are the best solutions to conflicts, with compromise we lose something, and gain something, and the next time the other person loses something for you, if they don't, that's when you get problems. You have to talk about how you want to solve those issues respectively.  

If you feel like giving up, remember, you're alive now, you have a choice, you've always had a choice, I will tell you right now though, the right choice is to keep fighting for happiness. It is never a good time to give up, and if you keep on living, life will surprise you! You will always have ups and downs, but you learn from the downs, and feel so good at the ups! I can guarantee you that in the future, if you listen to these next steps, you will feel at least a little better.

We all have our own passions in life, LIVE YOUR LIFE THE WAY YOU WANT TO. For me, my passion is helping people, I find it so incredibly satisfying, and I know it's something I can always do. Your passion can be singing, writing songs, writing books, writing poems, or playing an instrument, or doing dance, or painting, or playing a sport! You can create future plans, go travel the world, and experience life, it will BLOW YOUR MIND how incredible this world is, it is incredibly beautiful and nature is so filled with spectacles. Living your life in a healthy way is also best, advice: eat healthy, exercise, spend time with people that care about you, and get proper sleep. You will feel relaxed when you do this, and trust me, it gets easier if you just do these things.

Still, if you feel like giving up, remember things will get better. :) People every year commit suicide and it's so sad, it affects everyone in the community, people are scarred for life with the memories of their loved one, and it's so hard to ease that pain. If you just live life and find the good in it, because there is good, you will find all those things you hold value to. This is only the beginning, it does get better. If you read all this,thank you so much for reading, please be sure to remind yourself once in a while that you're a beautiful person with a soul of an angel, you deserve better, and you can live your life the way you want. :) 

A little about me

So, there's a lot to me to know. I don't like to think of myself as a complex person at all, but when it comes down to it, I can seem pretty mysterious. For instance, I have always wondered, and asked myself, "Who am I?" And never came up with an answer. Even now, I don't really know myself that well. I always learn new things and it's fun! From my friend, I found a personality test. The test was the Myers-Briggs personality test, it's actually really simple to take, and very accurate if taken properly. The result I was given was INFP. INFP basically, has a lot of information if you look it up, which I did. You don't need to read all of this, obviously, but this whole description describes me almost perfectly. So! that tells you a little about who I am, personality-wise. Things I enjoy doing are.. Reading, writing, listening to music, writing songs, playing sports, and helping other people. :)

I'm an INFP personality type, can search it up if you don't completely understand. :)

The Idealist

As an INFP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.

INFPs, more than other intuitive Feeling types, are focused on making the world a better place for people. Their primary goal is to find out their meaning in life. What is their purpose? How can they best serve humanity in their lives? They are idealists and perfectionists, who drive themselves hard in their quest for achieving the goals they have identified for themselves

INFPs are highly intuitive about people. They rely heavily on their intuitions to guide them, and use their discoveries to constantly search for value in life. They are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through the INFP's value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help the INFP define or refine their own path in life. The goal at the end of the path is always the same - the INFP is driven to help people and make the world a better place.

Generally thoughtful and considerate, INFPs are good listeners and put people at ease. Although they may be reserved in expressing emotion, they have a very deep well of caring and are genuinely interested in understanding people. This sincerity is sensed by others, making the INFP a valued friend and confidante. An INFP can be quite warm with people he or she knows well.

INFPs do not like conflict, and go to great lengths to avoid it. If they must face it, they will always approach it from the perspective of their feelings. In conflict situations, INFPs place little importance on who is right and who is wrong. They focus on the way that the conflict makes them feel, and indeed don't really care whether or not they're right. They don't want to feel badly. This trait sometimes makes them appear irrational and illogical in conflict situations. On the other hand, INFPs make very good mediators, and are typically good at solving other people's conflicts, because they intuitively understand people's perspectives and feelings, and genuinely want to help them.

INFPs are flexible and laid-back, until one of their values is violated. In the face of their value system being threatened,

INFPs can become aggressive defenders, fighting passionately for their cause. When an INFP has adopted a project or job which they're interested in, it usually becomes a "cause" for them. Although they are not detail-oriented individuals, they will cover every possible detail with determination and vigor when working for their "cause".

When it comes to the mundane details of life maintenance, INFPs are typically completely unaware of such things. They might go for long periods without noticing a stain on the carpet, but carefully and meticulously brush a speck of dust off of their project booklet.

INFPs do not like to deal with hard facts and logic. Their focus on their feelings and the Human Condition makes it difficult for them to deal with impersonal judgment. They don't understand or believe in the validity of impersonal judgment, which makes them naturally rather ineffective at using it. Most INFPs will avoid impersonal analysis, although some have developed this ability and are able to be quite logical. Under stress, it's not uncommon for INFPs to mis-use hard logic in the heat of anger, throwing out fact after (often inaccurate) fact in an emotional outburst.

INFPs have very high standards and are perfectionists. Consequently, they are usually hard on themselves, and don't give themselves enough credit. INFPs may have problems working on a project in a group, because their standards are likely to be higher than other members' of the group. In group situations, they may have a "control" problem. The INFP needs to work on balancing their high ideals with the requirements of every day living. Without resolving this conflict, they will never be happy with themselves, and they may become confused and paralyzed about what to do with their lives.

INFPs are usually talented writers.( I've actually written many songs, and stuff so yeah, true.)  They may be awkward and uncomfortable with expressing themselves verbally, but have a wonderful ability to define and express what they're feeling on paper. INFPs also appear frequently in social service professions, such as counselling or teaching. They are at their best in situations where they're working towards the public good, and in which they don't need to use hard logic.

INFPs who function in their well-developed sides can accomplish great and wonderful things, which they will rarely give themselves credit for. Some of the great, humanistic catalysts in the world have been INFPs.

INFPs present a calm, pleasant face to the world. They appear to be tranquil and peaceful to others, with simple desires. In fact, the INFP internally feels his or her life intensely. In the relationship arena, this causes them to have a very deep capacity for love and caring which is not frequently found with such intensity in the other types. The INFP does not devote their intense feelings towards just anyone, and are relatively reserved about expressing their inner-most feelings. They reserve their deepest love and caring for a select few who are closest to them. INFPs are generally laid-back, supportive and nurturing in their close relationships. With Introverted Feeling dominating their personality, they're very sensitive and in-tune with people's feelings, and feel genuine concern and caring for others. Slow to trust others and cautious in the beginning of a relationship, an INFP will be fiercely loyal once they are committed. With their strong inner core of values, they are intense individuals who value depth and authenticity in their relationships, and hold those who understand and accept the INFP's perspectives in especially high regard. INFPs are usually adaptable and congenial, unless one of their ruling principles has been violated, in which case they stop adapting and become staunch defenders of their values. They will be uncharacteristically harsh and rigid in such a situation.

creative, smart, idealist, disorganized, avoidant, can be overwhelmed by unpleasant feelings, prone to feelings of loneliness, ambivalent of the rules, solitary, daydreams about people to maintain a sense of closeness, focus on fantasies, acts without planning, emotionally moody, can feel defective, prone to lateness, likes esoteric things, wounded at the core, feels shame, frequently losing things, prone to sadness, observer,  does not like crowds, can act without thinking, private, can feel uncomfortable around others, can sabotage self, likes the rain, sometimes can't control fearful thoughts, prone to crying, prone to regret, attracted to the counter culture, can be submissive, prone to feeling discouraged, frequently second guesses self, not punctual, not always prepared, can feel victimized, prone to confusion, prone to irresponsibility, Optimistic (always) ----> Although lots of these make me sound like a pessimistic person, i'm actually always usually happy, and optimistic, although i'm scarred from many things i've been through, those memories have made me stronger with what i've been through. I'm also pretty funny, and can be random and I get lotsa laughs out of people, it's great :D

Most INFPs will exhibit the following strengths with regards to relationship issues:

• Warmly concerned and caring towards others
• Sensitive and perceptive about what others are feeling
• Loyal and committed - they want lifelong relationships
• Deep capacity for love and caring
• Driven to meet other's needs
• Strive for "win-win" situations
• Nurturing, supportive and encouraging
• Likely to recognize and appreciate other's need for space
• Able to express themselves well
• Flexible and diverse

Most INFPs will exhibit the following weaknesses with regards to relationship issues:

• May tend to be shy and reserved
• Don't like to have their "space" invaded
• Extreme dislike of conflict
• Extreme dislike of criticism
• Strong need to receive praise and positive affirmation
• May react very emotionally to stressful situations
• Have difficulty leaving a bad relationship
• Have difficulty scolding or punishing others
• Tend to be reserved about expressing their feelings
• Tendency to blame themselves for problems, and hold everything on their own shoulders

INFPs feels tremendous loyalty and commitment to their relationships. With the Feeling preference dominating their personality, harmony and warm feelings are central to the INFP's being. They feel a need to be in a committed, loving relationship. If they are not involved in such a relationship, the INFP will be either actively searching for one, or creating one in their own minds.

INFPs tendency to be idealistic and romantically-minded may cause them to fantasize frequently about a "more perfect" relationship or situation. They may also romanticize their mates into having qualities which they do not actually possess. Most INFPs have a problem with reconciling their highly idealistic and romantic views of life with the reality of their own lives, and so they are constantly somewhat unsettled with themselves and with their close personal relationships. However, the INFP's deeply-felt, sincere love for their mates and their intense dislike of conflict keeps the INFP loyal to their relationships, in spite of their troubles achieving peace of mind.

Unlike other types who tend to hold their mates up on a pedastal, the INFP's tendency to do so does not really turn into a negative thing in the relationship. INFPs hold tightly to their ideals, and work hard at constantly seeing their mates up on that pedastal. The frequent INFP result is a strongly affirming, proud and affectionate attitude towards their mates which stands the test of time.

INFPs are not naturally interested in administrative matters such as bill-paying and house-cleaning, but they can be very good at performing these tasks when they must. They can be really good money managers when they apply themselves.

One real problem area for the INFP is their intensive dislike of conflict and criticism. The INFP is quick to find a personal angle in any critical comment, whether or not anything personal was intended. They will tend to take any sort of criticism as a personal attack on their character, and will usually become irrational and emotional in such situations. This can be a real problem for INFPs who are involved with persons who have Thinking and Judging preferences. "TJ"s relate to others with a objective, decisive attitude that frequently shows an opinion on the topic of conversation. If the opinion is negative, the TJ's attitude may be threatening to the INFP, who will tend to respond emotionally to the negativity and be vaguely but emphatically convinced that the negativity is somehow the INFP's fault.

For INFPs with extremely dominant Feeling preferences who have not developed their Intuitive sides sufficiently to gather good data for their decision making processes, their dislike of conflict and criticism can foretell doom and gloom for intimate relationships. These INFPs will react with extreme emotional distress to conflict situations, and will not know what to do about it. Since they will have no basis for determining what action to take, they will do whatever they can to get rid of the conflict - which frequently means lashing out irrationally at others, or using guilt manipulation to get their mates to give them the positive support that they crave. This kind of behavior does not bode well for healthy, long-term relationships. Individuals who recognize this tendency in themselves should work on their ability to take criticism objectively rather than personally. They should also try to remember that conflict situations are not always their fault, and they're definitely not the end of the world. Conflict is a fact of life, and facing it and addressing it immediately avoids having to deal with it in the future, after it has become a much larger problem.

INFPs are very aware of their own space, and the space of others. They value their personal space, and the freedom to do their own thing. They will cherish the mate who sees the INFP for who they are, and respects their unique style and perspectives. The INFP is not likely to be overly jealous or possessive, and is likely to respect their mate's privacy and independence. In fact, the INFP is likely to not only respect their mate's perspectives and goals, but to support them with loyal firmness.

In general, INFPs are warmly affirming and loving partners who make the health of their relationships central in their lives. Although cautious in the beginning, they become firmly loyal to their committed relationships, which are likely to last a lifetime. They take their relationships very seriously, and will put forth a great deal of effort into making them work.

Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, INFP's natural partner is the ENFJ, or the ESFJ. INFP's dominant function of Introverted Feeling is best matched with a partner whose dominant function is Extraverted Feeling. The INFP/ENFJ combination is ideal, because it shares the Intuiting way of perceiving, but the INFP/ESFJ combination is also a good match.

as parents:

INFPs are "natural" parents. They accept and enjoy the parental role, seeing it as the natural extension of their value systems. They make use of the parental role for developing and defining their values further, and consider it their task to pass their values on to their children. They take their role quite seriously. Warm, affirming, and flexible, the INFP generally makes a gentle and easy-going parent in many respects.

INFPs do not like conflict situations, and will keep themselves flexible and diverse to promote a positive, conflict-free environment in their home. The INFP is not naturally prone to dole out punishment or discipline, and so is likely to adapt to their mate's disciplinary policy, or to rely on their mates to administer discipline with the children. In the absence of a mating parent, the INFP will need to make a conscious effort of creating a structure for their children to live within.

Although the INFP dislikes punishing others, they hold strong values and will not tolerate the violation of a strongly-held belief. If they feel that their child has truly committed a wrong, the INFP parent will not have a problem administering discipline. They will directly confront the child, stubbornly digging in their heels and demanding recourse.

The INFP parent is likely to value their children as individuals, and to give them room for growth. They will let the children have their own voice and place in the family.

Extremely loving and devoted parents, INFPs will fiercely protect and support their children. If there is an issue involving "taking sides", you can bet the INFP will always be loyal to their children.

INFPs are usually remembered by their children as loving, patient, devoted, and flexible parents.

as friends:

INFPs are warm and caring individuals who highly value authenticity and depth in their personal relationships. They are usually quite perceptive about other people's feelings and motives, and are consequently able to get along with all sorts of different people. However, the INFP will keep their true selves reserved from others except for a select few, with whom they will form close and lasting friendships. With their high ideals, they are likely to be drawn to other iNtuitive Feelers for their closer friendships.

With their strong need for harmony and dislike of conflict, INFPs may feel threatened by people with strong Judging and Thinking preferences. Although they're likely to be able to work well professionally with such individuals, they may have difficulty accepting or appreciating them on a personal level. They generally feel a kinship and affinity with other Feeling types.

INFPs will be valued by their confidantes as genuine, altruistic, deep, caring, original individuals.